Danny Trejo’s Path from Drug Abuse to Prison, Sobriety to Acting Fame

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Melissa Killeen

Iconic Hollywood “tough guy” Danny Trejo has lived an incredible life, and he’s been sober for 46 years of it. A new AARP documentary, produced by Washington, D.C.-based filmmaker TJ Cooney, tells the story of how the Desperado actor transitioned from a life of substance abuse and violence to becoming a drug counselor, Hollywood actor, and mentor for young people.

“I thought that drugs were my answer. As long as I stayed loaded, I’m okay,” recalls Trejo in a clip from the film, released exclusively to The Fix. “But life would turn into chaos.”

As a teen, Trejo was in-and-out of juvie and prison, where he started boxing. In his mid-20s, he was released from prison and made a decision to get sober. “I dedicated my life to helping other people,” he says.

After beginning a career as a drug counselor, Trejo ended up on a Hollywood movie set while helping one of his clients, who turned out to be an actor. He was hired as an on-set boxing coach, and was ultimately cast as an extra in the film. The role jumpstarted his acting career, and he has since appeared in up to five movies a year alongside actors like George Clooney and Robert De Niro.

“Everything good that has happened to me has happened as a direct result of helping someone else,” he says.

Trejo continues to mentor young people and speaks at college campuses across the country. “My passion is talking to young people who want to stay out of trouble,” he says. “My message is: staying away from drugs and alcohol, and education, is the key to anything you want to do.”

He uses his notoriety to get young people to listen, and hopes his own story will inspire others to follow in his footsteps. “I love that responsibility of being able to help people do right,” he says. “I was an addict and alcoholic and I know that road. That road leads to death, institutions or insanity. I’ve been sober for 46 years and have had a great, great life.”

This article appeared on 7/30/2015 at thefix.com and was written by May Wilkerson. The video is courtesy of the AARP.

Editor’s note: I was introduced to Danny Trejo by researching Bob Timmins’ story. Bob is recognized as the first recovery coach. When Bob was in San Quentin, he was friends with Danny. Upon Bob’s release Bob went to Danny’s house, expecting to start where he had left off, robbing and drugging. He knocked on Danny’s door, Danny gave him a room, fed him a meal and took him to his first 12-step meeting. Danny introduced Bob to his first sponsor, a sponsor/sponsee relationship that lasted over twenty years. Danny was pivotal in saving Bob’s life.

 

 

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I will never leave you – I am a love addict

This post is part two of a topic that was posted last week.

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Melissa Killeen

“I will never leave you.”

“You are such a brilliant woman.”

“I want to give you so much love.”

A woman can give me what I never received. Their arms around me, their caring embrace, the love that I never received because I was an orphan. I will never leave them. They will never leave me. I have an abject fear of abandonment. I think they fear abandonment, too.

They will support me, just like my sponsor in Germany and I will support them, I will fix their house, attend to the lawn, tune up the car. I will be theirs, forever. I want to be in love with a woman. My mind slips into fantasy as I troll the pages of Linked In and Facebook. I want to have the emotional attachment with a woman, the connection, and the bond. I want that maternal bond.

I know it is silly to even mention marriage one week into an on-line conversation, but I have to be honest, I really want to marry these women. I want to be attached to them. Eventually, I will have a sexual interlude, over the phone,  but not often. I am not as interested in the sexual acts, it is the fantasy that I am so stimulated by. I like to be under a women’s control, I feel safe. She calls me at all times of the day. We talk for hours. I tell her the things I really want to hear. Texting is my favorite. My texts responses are pre-programmed in my cell.

“I love you.”

“Good night my sweetheart, I will dream about you.”

“When we are together I will never let you go.”

She sometimes needs convincing that she loves me too, so I weave in my business story into this ritual of seduction. She loves my accent. I tell her all about my worldly adventures and business dealings. That I have just had a great business proposition handed to me. My best friend and business partner pulled out of because he and his wife are divorcing. His lawyer advised him not to make a lot of money right now, because his wife will claim half of it. Seven days after we meet on-line, I send out the pitch, do you want to invest $30K? Can you let me borrow $20K? I mix it up, depending on how much my lover (yes we call each other lover, sweetheart, and dearest by now) can liquidate from her IRA or CD’s.

Ten days into a relationship I am either rich, or I find a new lover.

But I am also devastated. Why did she say no? I want to call her every minute of the day. I look at my cell waiting for her text to arrive. I can’t sleep. I think I must try to convince her to come back to me. Sometimes I do. If she comes back to me, I have to ask her for money again. Usually in three days I text her again.

If I receive money from her, she is elevated to queen status in my life. But often times she has expectations I cannot fulfill. I am her lover, her fantasy and she wants to meet me. She wants us to meet at a four star hotel for a tryst. Maybe spend a week on a cruise ship. I can’t leave my other women, while I cruise the Caribbean. So I have to distance myself. Eventually, I know she will abandon me, they all do. So I abandon her first.

But it breaks my heart.

It takes me weeks to recover.

So I find another.

I am a love addict.

 

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You are all mine – I am a love addict

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Melissa Killeen

“You are all mine.”

“I want to spend the rest of my life with you.”

“In a few months I will be back and we will meet.”

I talk like this all of the time. With every woman I meet. And with every woman I meet, I fall in love. I fall in love with the fantasy I make up in my head about them .  .  . and me. I love this energy: meeting women, falling in love, and finding the “one.” This energy happens with every woman I meet, and I meet about five of them a month. Sometimes more.

I meet them online. I meet them on Facebook or LinkedIn, not dating sites. Eventually we talk on the phone. This is where my master skills of seduction come in, because I coerce women to give me money. I am a scam artist. But really, I am a love addict.

My name is Phil. I was born in Germany, my parents gave me up for adoption, so I lived in foster homes in the 1950s and 60s. No love in those places. When I was 17, I started living on the streets of Berlin, performing as a street musician and begging for money. Eventually, I was able to attend a German boarding school, which is called gymnasien, thanks to a sponsor. This sponsor was very good to me. He was very wealthy. I was young, handsome and I fit into his fantasy. I gave him sex in exchange for an education. He fit into my fantasy: a savior, a father figure, and a lover. This sponsor helped me to attend the most prestigious university in Berlin for technical knowledge and I graduated with a degree in geological engineering. I was fascinated with the high-risk life in the oil and gas drilling fields. It was just like the high-risk life of living on the streets.

Eventually I went to England and took my masters in geological engineering and started working with an international gas drilling company. Now I find myself in North Dakota, with the most recent gas drilling boom. I act as a consultant to large gas firms. Or at least that is what I tell my women.

I focus entirely on them from the point I finish that story. I tell them they are very smart. They usually are. I know that because I am looking at their LinkedIn profile and can repeat everything that is on their resume. I have researched every online presence they may have from Facebook to Pinterest. Before long, I know their address, I have pictures of their house and their kids. The perfect woman for me is an empty nester, high-net-worth executive, self-employed businesswoman, without a significant other. They are lonely for a male to pay attention to them.

They can see my profile on LinkedIn. It is very impressive, international degrees, prestigious schools, and no way to track. I include photos, after all, I am a hottie. I snag a few photos from an appropriately aged guy’s Facebook page, along with those perfect family shots of my daughter and son. While I am creating a profile, I befriend a few of my woman’s Facebook friends to give me some credibility. I (alas) lost my wife to cancer seven years ago, and I haven’t dated since. I am grieving. My therapist told me I had to get out and meet someone. But I digress, the widow, the photos, the kids, the therapist . . . they are all stories too.

But one thing that is not a story is that I really love these women. I meet them online, I seduce them in emails and phone conversations and I really fall in love with them. I fantasize that “we” have found each other at a turning point in my life. I hope that “she” is the one. She is the one that I will find who will take me away from all this subterfuge. I can’t believe I could be so lucky to fall into this perfect relationship, for she is perfect and I can abandon this life and fall into her arms. From just a post on a group page of wine lovers, theater enthusiasts or Psychiatrists, I have found the one.

Phil’s story continues next week on August 6

 

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